sad news...fRidAy...get well soon
today supposely be, the same as normal school days,laughters...jokes...craps...nonsenses....morning still attending wp @ 8am...though i was sooo tired..drag get out of my cosy bed...happily enjoying the lesson cos first time so attentive in class...understanding the whole lesson n following it throughout...but..of cos, there is still craps in between..joking around with 'ah-mui' thingy...haha...somemore after consulting teacher regarding our webpage, knowing that im on the right tracks really wooah~ after the lesson..is the time for kq n me's heart-to-heart talk..every fri, we will share our secrets n chit-chat on almost everything at that pathetic 1 hour break....then joining chris they all in ret lecture..n removing all the stuffs from our notice board...joking again in veronica 's room...n just a split of seconds...EVERYTHING CHANGE.....our mood switch 'mono' kind de... dim..sad...dora broke the news to us...my fren..the first fren i get to know her in poly...met accident yesterday...the whole day i feel sooo uncomfortable...well..please note that: i WASNT one of those fakers!!! i still remember i get to know her in year 1 when we were doing those charity for school, if i'm not wrong is president's charity...that day she was my partner...we know each other n chat a lot on that day, it seems like we had known each other for many years..that day we chose our destination at holland 'v' n it was raining heavily after we had our lunch..so we intend to 'slack' in the foodcourt. while sitting n slacking we share everything...on dieting..relationship..family...school...friends..when i was in deep shit she was the one who will comfort me cos both of us are 'night-owl' so tends to call her in late hours n we will also plan to wear similar clothes to sch...skipping lesson n meet to sch....i really believe in fate...thats y i met her....n in one of the v'day i still saw her in ms cinema...both of us were in the same theatre n watching the same movie..and i noticed when i met her in the toilet after the movie. however after several months becos of those stupidity projects causes our friendship to turn sour...n also she had hurt one of my gd friend in a relationship...she was unsure of wat she wants n i did reprimanded her on this issue..i couldn't bear to see my fren so-called torture in such relationship after that... we were not that close anymore..each of us have our own fence to defend n protect....i thought it is just a matter of time...thinking that after some time the gap between us will close up sooner or later...but things didn't turn out to be wat i had expected...trying to save this friendship i even asked her to join my dental clinic's outing at west coast park...she didnt reject me n we went together....enjoyed flying kite...then to year 2 when she gets to know more friends..of cos, she will have the freedom to make new friends...but this once again pull us further away from each other...not even chit-chat on phone nor sitting down in the same table during break time...finally..i gave up...thinking that perhaps we are just high-bye friends...having this thinking for almost 1 years ++.. till today then i realised her good, n im such a failure in being a friend....really shame of me !!!! having that thinking..i made a big mistake... i didnt really care about her anymore..didnt even bother to return her missed call...n...u know gals loves gossips so when ppl talk bad about her i didnt even bother to speak up for her..instead, some time i still make fun out of it...especially today, i feel so bad really.when hearing that news..i knew i gonna cried so i chose not to go home first instead i went orchard with kq..chris..hs.x..n..y..actually we wanted to visit her but teacher suggested that it's better if we go on next week n heard from my other friend said that she's too weak to talk but still wants to talk so i think better not..let her rest first.... at this moment...i still feeling upset..y everytime i will start to treasure thing only when something had happened...am i someone with such lousy characters?..not fit to be a friend?..i know no point saying this ...i can't change anything but i know i can try to change my view towards her...n never get myself involve in any gossips that got to do with her...i really hope that u will get well lim jing......promise that i will not repeat that mistake n will be by ur side whenever u need a friend....
get well soon!!!~ lim jing~
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